I believe in the constitution’s inalienable rights, and freedom for all. I believe in humanity, compassion, love, and helping others; or at the very least keeping to yourself and not causing issues. I’m too small to rock the boat! I’ve always felt fulfilled to work and produce in this world and was driven to labor hard. I don’t believe in war and the propaganda behind it. I don’t believe in robbing others for personal gain. I believe governments are tools for subjugating their own citizens and protecting corporate/their own interests. I don’t believe it will change unless stories like these are taken to heart.

      Like every child, I parroted my parents’ views while growing up. They were both registered republicans, and I remember their fears of Obama winning the 2008 election. My mother had some spats about it with her sister, a staunch democrat. Her main complaint was the proposed healthcare plan that would ‘force her to buy insurance’ at seemingly exorbitant prices. I’d repeat the mantra of “we’re gonna move out of the country if Obama wins” with the other kids while standing in line outside of the elementary school temps. This didn’t happen of course, and I thought like my parents “he’s a Muslim/wasn’t born here/he’s not even black” watching him take the oath in class. Over his first term, my mom’s beef continued to lie with the ACA. Every week, I heard the news speak about another drone strike that he signed for, and another expansion to the NSA’s power. There weren’t any immediate personal effects of him running the country while I was in school, so I grew up thinking “he’s not such a bad president.”

      I remember my parents taking me to church maybe five times while growing up. Where many of the friends I met in middle school were raised as protestant/Catholics, there was no religious belief instilled in me. Prayers were only muttered for help, not before meals or bed. God’s name wasn’t mentioned, except by mother to curse Him for the shitty things going on in her life. Growing up with her after my parents were divorced, I too would point a middle finger at the sky when upset. It’s easy to project your problems to a reason outside of your control. I stopped doing so in high school, becoming an agnostic atheist. Religion simply seemed like another way that people chose to divide themselves over. Heavily involved with math and science throughout school, I concluded that there was no divine creator. We’re all just highly evolved monkeys on a planet where the proper conditions for life were met. I believed there was no before or after life, only this unique consciousness comprised of millions of neurons working together. There’s no grand scheme. Each individual person is a neural network sensing, processing, and adapting to its environment. Everyone is the culmination of their nature, and nurture.

      I was always curious about how the world worked and wanted to know more about science and technology. Growing up with my parents together, they bought me many science books to read. I’d ask my father to explain how things were made, how cars worked, and math concepts. Leaving to live with my mother across the neighborhood, I got a Samsung phone with the slide out keyboard in for Christmas 2006. This was a high-tech device at the time, with 3g connection, map capabilities, full qwerty keyboard, and a screen big enough to read Wikipedia! I loved falling through the wiki hole about all sorts of topics.

      Throughout high school, I developed a deep-seated anxiety that the world is on the brink of destruction and shit’s about to hit the fan! I remember AP biology, talking about animal populations maintaining homeostasis with their environment. Predator and prey populations exist in a cyclical balance, and their ecosystem can only support a certain amount. Us humans have been breeding with no natural predators, and the Industrial Revolutions allowed our population to explode. Our only limiting factor is the Earth’s resources, and we’re about to run out. I remember my mother’s disappointment saying that I didn’t want kids. Not making more consumers is the best way to save ourselves.

      No matter what you think about Climate Change, it’s undeniable that humans are making an impact on our environment. Remember the term “energy crisis” during the Bush administration that extended into Obama’s? Our government officials admitted that there’s an enormous demand for energy that we can’t fill! I believed the war in the Middle East was simply a grab for oil to solve our demand. But we can’t burn petrocarbons forever; there’s a finite amount in the earth’s crust. Everyone’s heard the term “Peak Oil”, where the cost of extracting exceeds the profit. Forgetting individual political beliefs, simple economics means it’ll become unprofitable to run our world on fossil fuels. When the corporations can’t make money from petroleum, they’ll be forced to find another way. But for as long as we fly planes on kerosene, we’ll need to keep distilling crude oil to get it. We’re not going to throw away the other products like diesel, gasoline, and propane. Private corporations are making progress with renewable energy sources and storage technologies, but I can’t see them overtaking fossil fuels anytime soon. Diesel engines in ships, trains, and trucks power the movement of freight around the world. We simply can’t ‘electrify’ them with our current technology. Ford touts their new electric truck that can ‘tow a million pounds’ but will run out of juice moving it a block. I predict that the human in a semi-truck will be replaced before the diesel engine. This is exactly what the energy corporations spend millions lobbying for. They want to keep profiting with the infrastructure they have; and don’t want to spend the money on developing new ones. It will be a massive paradigm shift away from petrocarbons, and it won’t happen until world governments reign in their corporations. From regulations to carbon taxes and subsidies, they ‘have’ the tools to do this. Instead, they choose to take lobbyist money.

      We do a lot more than burn fuels to keep the lights on, refrigerator running, and drive to work. Every creature in this world generates waste: the bird shit on your freshly washed car, the turd in your toilet, and the heat generated in your muscles when you flush it. This is all ‘natural’ waste. Our understanding of thermodynamics states that nothing is 100% efficient, and there will always be waste, if only in the form of heat. This organic waste from biological processes is a necessary part of life! Everything that goes in is ultimately returned to the environment to be recycled. Problems start to arise when we generate ‘unnatural’ waste. Even carbon dioxide and other greenhouse gases generated from burning fuels can be absorbed and recycled. Our understanding of chemistry and how to manipulate atomic bonds has led to the world of comfort we have today. Many of these processes simply can’t occur in nature! They require extremes in energy or pressure that don’t occur naturally. The chemical reactions that take place produce waste on the way to the final product. When simply thrown away, these wastes enter an environment that can’t process them. But the final products can be just as wasteful as their generation. All of us in developed countries ‘throw things away’ every day, yet everyone hates taking the trash out. Food packaging is one of the largest sources of physical waste. You know that everything tossed in the trash gets stuffed in the ground to ‘decompose’ over centuries or even a millennium. Out of sight, out of mind! But can the microbes in the dirt break these unnatural chemical structures completely down into their original organic components of carbon, hydrogen, and nitrogen? They won’t naturally evolve fast enough to deal with this influx of inorganic compounds, so scientists are engineering microorganisms to do just that!

      Recycling makes many of us feel like we’re disposing of our waste ‘properly’. But the industry is for profit like everything else, and it won’t be recycled if it’s not profitable. Rigid plastics like milk and water bottles are profitable, but much of the stuff that goes in the recycling bin is thrown away or burned. We can’t rely on our current model of creation, consumption, and recycling to solve our waste problems, yet it remains in place because it’s profitable. Our level of consumption in the first world is only sustainable at a significantly smaller population. India alone has a billion people, yet they don’t consume as much as America. Imagine if everyone there drove a car to work in an air-conditioned building to bring packaged groceries back to a big home in suburbia. America can’t meet our energy needs already, how would India meet theirs?

      I didn’t think about the World much outside of that. I didn’t read news or pay attention to anything outside of my little bubble. The biggest thing going on in “the World” was the market crash of 2008, and endless war in the Middle East. This is all I saw when my mother watched ABC’s World News. I believed that the war was in retaliation for 9/11, and our servicemen and women were over there fighting terrorist organizations and bringing freedom to oppressed people. But everything seen on the news was far, far removed from my personal world of going to school and playing video games.

      I ‘got involved’ with political activism in the later years of high school by signing up for e-mail lists of ‘progressive’ organizations. I’d click to add my name to petitions calling for healthcare and climate reforms and send pre-written messages to politicians. It was an easy way to feel like I was ‘making a difference’. When Bernie Sanders ran in the 2015 democratic primaries, I donated $100: a large sum for a broke high schooler! The girlfriend I made after school was on the same train and had a Bernie sticker on her car. When Hillary Clinton was announced instead, it felt like a slap in the face! Lurking around 4Chan, the image board became filled with nothing but Trump memes as his presidential run and nomination was confirmed. My simplest political view was “I’m sick of nepotistic presidential dynasties, we had Bush and Bush Jr, and already a Clinton!” The way Hillary acted so smug, like her presidency was God given, rubbed me the wrong way. I didn’t care for the identity politics of electing the first woman president. I wanted somebody based on policy, regardless of their gender or color! In my mind, there was no way Hillary could lose, as she was the Establishment’s choice. I didn’t think that Trump would make a ‘good’ president, but thought “if he gets elected, it’ll show the Establishment that the people are sick of it!” The slew of over-the-top memes convinced me to vote for him in protest. I couldn’t believe it when he won on election night! There’s no way, Hillary had this in the bag! Ultimately, the biggest shocker was that: I voted Red for Trump in Colorado; but Colorado’s electoral vote was Blue, negating mine; although the electoral college was ultimately for Trump, even though Hillary had 3 million more votes! This postulate defined my belief that voting for the system isn’t going to change the system.

      The ‘businessman’ turned politician that I voted for was quickly forgotten. I thought that “it’ll be another 4 years of nothing; how much can he possibly screw up? If he’s smart, he’ll pick good advisors and let them do the work.” My attention was devoted to my world of Megan, working jobs, and side projects. I browsed Reddit since freshman year when rage comics plastered the front page. It became a portal for memes, interesting askreddit threads, and animal pictures through the end of school and beyond. When the relationship ended, I had more time to spend on the front page as it turned into current events and world news. I became aware of what Trump was doing, and the things happening outside my world. I found that he’d been quite busy and didn’t do nothing like I anticipated.

      As the democratic primaries began in 2019, I saw a candidate that I truly believed in! All except one ran on feel-good identity politics and vague progressive promises. We had Buttigieg the champion of LGBQT, Beto the Gun Grabber, Warren the Woman with her Wealth Tax, Bernie with a Federal Jobs Guarantee (which I think is asinine), Kamala the Kriminal Katcher, and Biden the Bulwark. Andrew Yang was the only one who seemed to understand where we’re headed as a species, and what needed to be done to make it a utopia. He understood that we’re in the process of automating away millions of jobs. Where everyone else spoke the same old line of “creating jobs”, he understood that we need to rethink our entire structure of labor, wealth, and human worth. I believed in his idea of a Value Added Tax being redistributed through a Universal Basic Income. The others’ idea of a Wealth Tax seemed silly; Yang pointed out it was tried in other countries and failed already! He was the only one who accepted we needed to adopt nuclear power as a stop gap for our energy needs. He knew that gun violence was a difficult issue to address, and that we needed to tackle the root of the problem: mental health and happiness of our citizens. He understood that we needed humanity and compassion to solve the issues. Some people lash out and attack ‘society’ by shooting up schools, malls, grocery stores, and theaters. I could even call these monkeys human, reacting to their environment in a human fashion. They feel ‘society’ has treated them wrong, and it’s easy to see these places as ‘societal institutions’ ostracizing them. They view the people inside as actively participating in the society that hurt them. But harming innocent people who never knew they existed doesn’t fix the issue, it only begets more pain.

      I was convinced that Yang would at least be a frontrunner in the primaries. He had defined ideas, policies, and something the others’ seemed to lack: humanity. I donated to his campaign and became active on social media to spread the word. I purchased campaign stickers and slapped one on the back of my 4Runner. When my father saw, he told me “Take that off or get out of my house!” I fought with him over it, but eventually caved as I had nowhere else to stay. Every morning before driving to work, I’d tape the sticker in my back glass, and peel it off when I returned home. In the back of my mind, I knew that Biden would be nominated because he was the ‘safest choice’, and ‘we’ had to defeat Trump, but it still hurt when the people chose to continue Obama’s legacy. With the two candidates confirmed, I again lost faith in the next 4 years. The presidential debates were some of the most hilarious spectacles I’ve ever witnessed and defined the state of our government.

      I’ve had what I consider ‘minimal’ contact with Law Enforcement growing up. Cops were a weapon wielded by my parents against each other. They were called multiple times during fights and took them both to jail on separate occasions. I’d been in the car a few times while my parents were pulled over. I remember my father being combative and winding up with a ticket, whereas my mother finessed her way out. The police stopping them didn’t appear like unjust monsters; they were only doing their job! Living with my mom, the cops were once again a weapon in a war with the neighbor. They were called a few times, with only the threat of restraining orders resulting. They seemed disinterested and in disbelief for dealing with a petty neighbor dispute! Through my short years of driving, I’ve been stopped a couple times for speeding. Each officer I encountered was gracious and cut me some slack. I believe that when they see a tiny white kid at the wheel, their fears are allayed, and they take pity on me. I’ve heard randos call me a high schooler multiple times!

      I believe that most officers patrolling the streets are simply human beings that want an easy day without any real work. Some of them are humans that want to laud their power over others. Some of them are simply scared humans when they pull the trigger and wind up on national news. But ultimately, I believe they’re humans and courageous for facing the public when they know most people hate them. Some of them may be vile and evil humans, but they’re sapient. They put themselves in harm’s way. They’ll wind up on the news for injustices and be vilified, even if they’re acquitted. A human being thinks becoming a police officer is the way to authority, power, and respect. If they don’t want to be on the front line, a human being will pursue another field of law. Humans want to participate in the justice system!

       All beings are deserving of altruism, compassion, and understanding. Many of the problems in this World come from a lack thereof. At the very least, we could not go deliberately out of the way to harm others. Humans have naturally formed social hierarchies since the dawn of time. We segregate groups in our minds based on criteria like race, religion, politics, looks, and social status. They are not like Me and therefore an outsider undeserving of my understanding! It’s natural for similar people to clique, and dissimilar groups to avoid each other. People think to attack outsiders from either a position of fear, or a false belief in power. Republican followers fear Democrats taking ‘their power’ and ‘corrupting the country’ with Socialistic ideals, gun grabs, Critical Race Theory, Gay/Queer/Transgender agendas, higher taxes, and a broad increase in Federal jurisdiction. Democrat subscribers fear Republicans taking ‘their power’ and ‘corrupting the country’ by abolishing abortion rights, banning sciences from schools, preventing progressive policies, and conserving things the way they are! This fear of ‘the other side’ having power has become the strongest driver of segregation in America. Four years of Trump has only entrenched everyone deeper in their political ideals. People choose to hide in them, thinking that ‘they are safe’ when their favorite politician is elected, as they’ll “work for me and my beliefs!” They’ll fight tooth and nail with a neighbor over a politician, like it will convince the other to change their mind! This is a human fear of losing power playing out in regular people. They can’t rationalize that others grew up different environments that instilled different ideals. ‘Their’ beliefs are viewed as an attack on ‘my’ beliefs. The conflict shouldn’t be Left vs Right, but rather the working man vs the entire government exploiting them.

      The other side of the coin is people believing they’re in a position of power over others. The Elite have real power and influence, and just want to preserve it. Regular people working for a living don’t have real ‘power’ in this world, so they create an illusion by pushing others around. Mistreating service workers is a classic example. People think that by shouting and demanding from them, they’re exerting ‘power’ to get what they want. Getting on social media, typing opinions, and arguing with others over beliefs is a simple way to feel powerful. Money, and by extension a job, is viewed as the ultimate power. People are defined by it! One of the first icebreakers we all use is “what do you do (for work)?” We think of engineers, doctors, lawyers, and movie/sports stars as prestigious because of their title. We think of the financial fat cats of Wallstreet as prestigious; not because of the work they do, but because of the ill-gotten wealth they have! We all think of politicians (or at least half of them) as ‘slimy’ but wouldn’t challenge them outside of a vote because they’re in power! Many of us have a higher view of EMS and fire personnel than police. Janitors, garbage men, truck drivers, manufacturing/warehouse workers, construction workers, shelf stockers and burger slingers don’t earn the same prestige in our minds. Some may view them with contempt for holding a ‘lesser job’! But someone must do these jobs for the gears of society to keep turning. You may consider yourself ‘powerful’ for holding a high corporate position, but who supports the life around you? Who grows the food you eat, packs, ships, unpacks and stocks it? Who made the fancy clothes you wear, the luxury car you drive, the house you live in, and the computer you work on?

      Regardless of the job done, monetary wealth is power. To me, you are not wealthy if you’re still working for it. A six-figure salary doesn’t make you rich; true wealth is when your money makes money! My father may think he’s wealthy but spends his life at the office to come back to the same suburbia with everyone else. Everyone knows the saying “everyone has a price.” Money buys influence. Politicians follow their lobbyists’ money. Money gets you into swanky events where you can rub elbows with the Elite and form connections. It allows one to move where they wish without restraint. True Wealth allows one to spend time on their desired pursuits, instead of working a job 40+ hours a week. Us ‘regular people’ can only participate in the system to ‘make a living.’

      Everyone wants to feel ‘in control’ of their surroundings. For most, their family is the extent of what can be controlled in their lives. Parents have an innate control over their offspring. It’s each parent’s choice as to how much they choose to exert. Marriage gives each partner an innate control over the other. Some take this privilege and wield it with an iron fist. They wish they could control the whole world but will settle for controlling the world of their family. Some have control over their workplace in a managerial/executive position. Some seek out positions of authority to control their communities. These little bits of power allow peoples’ egos to grow bigger than themselves. They like feeling ‘in control’ by demanding from others, and love dishing out punishment when they aren’t met. They’re rewarded and trained to keep doing so when others do as commanded. I could say that people shouldn’t let themselves be controlled, but would you run away from your providing parents, leave an established job in search of another, or question an order from an authority figure?

      Ultimately, people only really care about themselves and their own world. We’re driven by the reward system in our brains, and that’s how vices form. A normal, healthy person only seeks to activate this system, receive pleasure, and prevent pain! To me, this is inherently human and not an issue. Athletes, churchgoers, video gamers, workaholics, bookworms, sluts, over/underweight people, gamblers, abusers, smokers, and junkies are all addicted to activating the pleasure center. Yet we only refer to some of these types with the negative connotation of ‘addicts’. Throughout school, I was addicted to exercise, eating well, schoolwork, learning more, and the feeling of self-righteousness that came with it. After graduating, I also became addicted to my girlfriend, coffee, nicotine, and weed. See “On Drugs” for further expansion about substances. Now I’ve developed an ‘addiction’ to raging at the Handlers monitoring me and writing about it. Although it may not feel ‘pleasurable’ to rant at my phone or sit at a computer for hours, there’s a chemical reaction compelling me to do so. To me, these have become more destructive addictions than anything in the past. It’s taken precedence over my needs for exercise, human contact, and even my desire for substances. Where I used to get some nicotine and coffee in me before going to the computer, I’ll be copying an audio tape or writing a tidbit before going downstairs in the morning! I had an entire summer of free mornings to get out, exercise, trip, chase girls, play video games or anything else, but I sat inside addicted to writing and raging. The mountains across from us were obscured by smoke the entire season, so there wasn’t much reason to go out anyways.

       An animal’s most basic instinct is self-preservation. Power structures remain in place because those with power naturally desire to keep it. Regular Joes work to provide for a family and wouldn’t do anything to disrupt the lives they’ve built. The same way the law of gravity pulled our solar system together and defines the motion of planetary bodies, people and society gravitate into routines. It would take an extraordinary amount of energy to change Earth’s orbit, and it takes an extraordinary change in life for people to break free of their orbits. A different way of life from the same day to day we expect is difficult to picture, as we can’t conceive how to go about it! Why change Earth’s orbit when we’re happy with the sun rising and setting like it does every day?

      If animals only want to find food, shelter, a mate, and hang onto that, then where did we develop the practice of organized warfare? Wars aren’t fought only by humans; it’s an inherently natural phenomenon! All creatures are born into an environment with scarcity where they must compete for resources. Banding together in groups to take, hold, and distribute resources seems to be a natural evolution. But in virtually every warring human society these resources are never distributed equally. The kings sending the soldiers to war hoard them, the soldiers that survive get a greater share than the peasants farming and feeding them, and the peasants/proletariat are given just enough to keep them tilling the fields. Watching a documentary on the Great Barrier Reef, it showed two individual polyps of coral having a tug-of-war over a plankton, until one yanked it away! Tiny creatures without a developed ‘brain’ were fighting over food! A few scenes later, it showed a timelapse of two different corals as they grew into each other’s space. They began throwing hundreds of stinging nettles at each other in a full-on battle! Individual polyps that fight over food acted together against a common enemy: a different species from ‘us’ invading ‘our’ space. Naturally, one side gave in and receded while the other expanded. Later, it showed an individual species of crab crawling across the ocean floor. This crab was joined by another and another, until the view panned out to thousands of them marching together in one direction like a medieval army. This battalion clashed with another of the same species, and the two sides engulfed each other until the whole ocean floor was covered with crabs! Individual creatures with barely a brain that compete for the same food are banding together to fight a war. The documentary didn’t specify what for.

      Basic sea creatures exhibit this behavior over food and territory. Us monkeys with developed reasoning manufacture more reasons to go to war. Since prehistoric times, clans of Homos fought over food and territory. Wars over differing cultures and religions are a recent phenomenon that developed with writing and literacy. Ancestors wrote the accounts of their battles with other cultures, leading their descendants to hold the same beliefs and fight the same battles. An individual or group of Homos could hold beliefs on another group of Homos without ever seeing them, simply from the words written or spoken of them! How did the two Great Wars come to be? Groups of people being led to believe that another was ‘taking their resources’, they’re ‘subhuman’ and an enemy that must be destroyed to take what’s rightfully ours! The Vietnam ‘war’ was an ideological one created by human fear. Why would America send its young men, valuable resources producing for the country, across the world to fight rice farmers? Why would so many agree to put themselves in harm’s way, when basic instinct is to keep what they have? Because the instilled ideological fear of ‘communism taking over the world’ lead them to believe that they were protecting their way of life back home by fighting a war oversees. The politicians in their fear or manipulation believed that they were protecting ‘America’s freedom’. After reading 1984, Orwell’s ideas about war being a construct to waste human resources seems spot on. The military-industrial complex and “keeping up with China” is bullshit we shouldn’t subscribe to.

       Many of the wars through humanity’s development have been simply territorial or ideologically fearful. When America couldn’t fight outright wars, we funded and supported groups that seemed to align with our interests. Dead politicians and ‘leaders’ created many of the conflicts in Middle East we still see today a century ago in World War 1. The victors cut the losers’ regions up and shuffled populations around to suit their desires, without any thought of the people. Groups were exiled from their generational homelands, historical enemies were placed next to each other, and puppet governments were installed. This led to the century of instability that Superpowers are still fighting to fix. I believe America’s recent wars in the Middle East have been for resources, and an excuse to exercise power overseas and at home. There are many accounts of soldiers standing around guarding oil and opium fields. We had all those boots on the ground when most of the killings were done with drone strikes. Many people think that ‘the Muslims over there hate us for our freedoms, and that’s why they attacked us.’ Most of the people over there don’t even know or care that America exists, until an armored convoy comes rolling through their village. Many of them don’t have basic electricity, let alone the internet to read about America. They’re monkeys like the rest of us, wanting a stable life and pleasure. ISIS is the only terrorist organization that’s bent on ‘spreading Islam to the world’, the rest of them only want to extend power in the region. The Russians left them the power of ‘modern’ weapons like AK’s and RPGs when they left the region. We left them advanced weapons after leaving. It’s satirical how ABC’s World News in December 2021 portrays the Taliban that took over as the good guys keeping ISIS at bay.

       I won’t go into the deep end of 9/11 conspiracies, but I think the ‘War on Terror’ was fabricated to instill fear in the population and create support for a war pushing the Elite’s interests. Bush said we had an “energy crisis”, and the solution is to pursue oil in the Middle East! Forgetting about that, it’s a grand excuse for a power grab. We’re not the only Superpower, and Russia and China exercise control over the region. In the same way we went to Vietnam to fight a proxy war against the Eastern Bloc, we went to Iran, Iraq and Afghanistan fighting a proxy war against the same ‘Axis’. It was also an excuse to take power at home. The PATRIOT Act was spawned under the guise of ‘defending national security’ after the attack. People were glad to give up 4th amendment rights because it was ‘necessary to fight terrorism.’ This act opened the door for the mass surveillance state of today. By blowing the threat of ‘terrorist attacks’ out of proportion, our government convinced its citizens to be complicit as ‘intelligence’ agencies expanded their reach. In 2022 we’re seeing “gas prices rise” because of “inflation and Biden’s policy failures.” I believe there’s a direct link between us leaving the oil sands behind, and our gas prices rising. It’s not “Biden’s policies” that are approved by other ‘lawmakers.’

      I believe in the Founding Fathers’ idea of small government, and free trade. The government should be responsible for providing infrastructure, public utilities and services that private companies are incentivized to monopolize and exploit. It should work to provide for its citizens and improve the lives of everyone. Government should also enforce regulations for the sake of its citizens’ health and wellbeing, and not for personal reasons and private gains. It should step in when a corporation becomes large and powerful enough to monopolize its industry with willful disregard for the people affected. I appreciate the FDA testing, examining, and enforcing food and drug standards. I appreciate that buildings, vehicles, and aircraft are supposed to be built with standards for safety and comfort. I would appreciate if our government wasn’t complicit in high financial crimes committed by corporations and Wall Street every day. I don’t appreciate the regulation of people’s personal lives in laws concerning women’s rights, drugs, 2nd amendment rights, other ‘tabus’, and the constant dismantling of the 4th amendment. I would appreciate if it focused on improving roads, waterways, schools, and cleaner energy sources than protecting lobbyists’ interests and a cantankerous military-industrial complex. It’s unfortunate that war is an inevitable part of nature, and we can’t use our higher reasoning to get over our collective fear of each other. A military should be about defending its citizens at home, not projecting power. For every foot soldier, there’s at least 10 people supporting him. What would all these service-people do instead if World Leaders decided to de-fund militaries, and put the money into building a better future? Yet they all continue the arms race out of instinctual fear of losing power to another nation.

      I believe in Capitalism and a Free Market. People should have the opportunity to pursue their dreams and ideas developing legitimate businesses. I can stand by the statement “capitalism breeds innovation”. The same way competing for resources in nature leads to species evolving to fill niches, competing for customers’ money leads new innovations. But it’s always a risky investment to start a business, and many people don’t have a safety net of wealth to fall back on if they fail. So, they work. I believe in working for a living, but honest work should earn at least a livable wage. We all like to think “you’ll get that good wage with a ‘good job’,” but how many of those ‘good jobs’ are available? Not everyone can be doctors, engineers, and lawyers. Many of the positions in our developed world are simply retail, manufacturing, shipping, and other menial tasks that currently need to be filled by humans for our society to function. I don’t believe in a communistically equal wage for all workers, as the incentive to perform at higher levels for greater wages is removed. However, I believe that corporations, financial institutions, and our government have the capacity to provide better wages these workers, they just fight not to. Much of the ‘wealth’ in the world has been deliberately funneled to those in power, by those in power. Wall Street and the large banks are tools used by the ‘1%’ to manipulate money. Jeff Bezos made his fortune not by legitimately competing, but by conspiring with financial institutions to manipulate stocks of businesses that stood in his way, organizing hostile takeovers when the price tanked, and ultimately destroying these companies. All those involved made gains at others’ expense. Then they funnel the money into offshore accounts or other places, adding to the war chest.

      Technological advances have greatly increased the productivity of workers. Yet, this capability has only pushed people to work more without seeing more money. We should be working less for more, not the other way around! The increased productivity has just made the rich richer. Our American work culture has become toxic, with employees guilting each other for wanting time off, not putting in overtime, and the collective feeling of ‘I need to work harder.’ With communications technology developed in the past two decades, people can now bring their job home! Taking calls and writing emails is still work. The line between work and ‘free time’ is blurring, and it seems more people are living to work than ever. My father is a great example: if he’s not at the office, he’ll be talking shop on the phone at home or driving, or on his laptop in the study. We may work hard here in America, but other countries work harder than we do! China, Japan, South Korea, and other east Asian employees push themselves and each other to work to exhaustion. Then after working a 12-hour day, you’re obligated to go out with your boss and co-workers. We’ve heard the reports of Foxconn factories installing nets so employees can’t jump and kill themselves. South Koreans are walking out in a general strike because they’re sick of making all the crap we buy! I’d want to die too if all I had to look forward to was another day of putting together the same circuit board and coming back to a tiny apartment of nothing.

      What’s going to happen when we completely remove the need for humans in many of these positions? Machine learning, intelligence, and robotics as we commercially know is in its infancy. We know how fast children grow up, soon these machines will be teenagers taking their first job flipping burgers or stocking shelves. They’ll learn to drive, overhauling the entire transportation industry as trucks, buses, and personal vehicles drive themselves. Manufacturing tasks are inherently repetitive, and robots will do the work soon. Hell, machines already make these machines! Isn’t this the utopia we dream of? Where we could have a life exploring ourselves and interests instead of doing repetitive tasks all day to scrape by? One day it will become more cost-effective to purchase a robot than to pay a human to do the work. If our current model of Capitalism and wealth distribution isn’t changed, the class divide will only grow as people are pushed out of the jobs they rely on.

      Ultimately, a Universal Basic Income will become necessary to support our innate primal desire to keep reproducing. There simply won’t be enough ‘jobs’ for everyone, especially if third-world countries modernize. Our idea of housing must completely change. As of right now, the housing market is a tool for rich people to get richer. Individual ‘investors’ and ‘investment firms’ that have the money can outright buy property and rent it to make more. Investment firms are vacuuming up property right now, believing they’ll hold value better than the dollar after the market crash. But how will they make money from rent, if people don’t have enough money to rent? A UBI should cover a basic rent, food, and transportation. The wealthy will still make money, and the poor can get by. It would take much of the stress over jobs out of life, as people won’t be completely dependent on them for survival. But there’ll still be incentive to work for a bigger house, better car, or a vacation. I liked the idea of a Value Added Tax to fund it, but there could be other methods. It’s unfortunate that I think the government must reign in human greed so the average Joe can have a house and a life. But inherently greedy monkeys run the government, and they only care about keeping things the way they are.

      I always thought of Government as power structures that evolved over the centuries, with individuals working it. I believe that some state and local leaders are trying to do good for their communities, but once they make it to Washington, they’re lost. You can’t make it there without millions in campaign funding! They become mired in the two-party struggle, trying to work with the system that’s there. Many of them work for purely their lobbyists’ or own personal interests. I couldn’t believe in a global conspiracy of ‘New World Order’, doubting that so many individual monkeys could work together to plot the course of the world. Our own government can barely work together, let alone hundreds of other governments! But Superpowers have meddled in virtually every country’s affairs in the past, and certain ‘intelligence agencies’ are notorious for black operations pushing a shady agenda, both at home and abroad. I wonder what they’re doing behind all the closed doors. I can now believe there’s truly a ‘shadow government’ pulling the strings and engineering our modern world for mass human exploitation and suffering for their agendas.

      Before my technological, thru-wall, and telepathic stalking experience, I couldn’t care less about our government and its agencies’ purposes. I was content with my little world of a girlfriend, and then the sense of freedom I gained afterwards. I was happy to work sanding, taping, and spraying cars in a body shop, come home and smoke, watch the sunset and take pictures, hang out with friends, exercise, watch funny YouTube videos, scroll through reddit, and go to concerts. My biggest dream in life was to become a professional painter or body tech and make the big bucks so I could afford a nice house, car, and maybe have a family like everyone else! I may have been a ‘black sheep’, but I went BAAH and followed the flock. Hell, I wasn’t even a sheep! I’m tiniest mouse trying not to be stepped on by the sheep.

      After being electronically stalked, harassed, and tortured 24/7 for nearly two years by the self-proclaimed “special agent” and “sworn law-enforcement officer”, I’ve become extremely wary and angry about governments and the state of the whole world. My little life was very personally picked apart by the young children of this ‘agent’, as they played God as the ‘Voice in my Head’. I always believed Apple products were ‘unhackable’, but saw my iPhone pause itself twice in a row and heard the agent’s daughter tell me “I’m not going to let you play it that loud,” when I was only trying to escape a full day of harassment! Hurtful comments were constantly pumped through my phone while simply watching YouTube videos or browsing Reddit. The Microwave Hearing Effect was weaponized against me as another method to be ‘the Voice in my Head’. I heard the voices of his children everywhere: on the toilet, in the shower, in the garage while working on my car, and in my bed the minute I woke, and until I fell asleep. Earplugs and muffs only made it louder, trapping the pressure created inside my head. I was deliberately kept up ’til daybreak by them on many occasions. Their voices would pull me in one direction, only to turn around and push me the other way! I couldn’t understand how the voices seemed to know everything I was doing in the ‘privacy’ of my home. Then I saw two glowing bricks of thru-wall Terahertz scanners and heard the giggles of his children when they brought them outside for a better view of my body. Unconscious bodily reactions of lust, fear, anxiety, joy, and relaxation were picked up in this imaging system, and exploited when the Voice would call it out. If I fought its demands, I was threatened with “we’re gonna call the cops, we’re gonna watch you forever, we’re gonna change your passwords.” I was filled with stress, fear, and misery all summer while working on a car project, when I went into the lockdown excited to pursue it.

      Average cops, military personnel and justice officials don’t know how to clone phones and DROPOUTJEEP them, hack all sorts of technology, inject audio into them, or can see through walls and read your emotions and mind. They may be able to take their service weapon after they leave, but they aren’t gifted these highly advanced cameras. An investigation doesn’t involve harassing your target and letting them know they’re being investigated. An investigator doesn’t let his children in on the work and give them free access to this technology. An investigator goes home to a family after their shift and wants to relax. This is not an ‘official’ investigation. It’s an abhorrently inhumane black operation that must be kept under wraps at all costs! I initially thought Chris just had the cameras kicking around and knew how to hack stuff. I thought it was a situation that arose from everyone being locked in because of the pandemic. I thought he figured it would give his kids something to do, and they wanted to ‘help’. That they didn’t want to destroy my life, just get me to use less water, play with my little sister, and stop smoking. If that was trying to ‘help’, I’d hate to see what they’d do when trying to hurt! I believed “they don’t possibly scrutinize and harass me every minute of the day, they have their own lives!” But I now know and feel the pressure of constant monitoring every day. Why can’t I help griping all the time to my phone and car? Because something’s always listening. It’s not even a real creature monitoring me all day anymore, but an artificial intelligence left running constantly to keep my mind removed from the world around me. It’s been used to keep me awake all night, and now to rip me from deep sleeps.

      I heard His daughter straight up said “you’re an experiment” one night. When did I consent to this experiment, and where’s my paycheck for participating? I’ve found accounts of other individuals with similar experiences. When I heard statements referring to years past, I realized that I’ve been monitored long before the pandemic. Is it simply that rewarding to voyeuristically watch me and play with my mind? His kids were having a fantastic time messing with me. I know that Chris’s control complex didn’t start with me, but with his family. He was likely bullied for being small as a kid and sought power over them after leaving high school by joining the military. Even I think it’d be cool to play god, accessing people’s private lives at a whim and looking through walls! Everything his children did was closely watched and controlled. I almost never saw them outside. Chris brought his army boots home and crushed his kids with them, preventing them from exploring themselves, forcing them to conform to his expectations! When he let the children wear the boots, they were ecstatic to be the ones doing the stomping for a change. I should take pity on them for growing up under a control freak. I should be understanding of how they acted when they finally got the chance to be controlling. Although, this program seems to run on indoctrination from birth, and Chris likely was. Only those that have grown up with this their entire lives could imagine continuing the legacy. There’s a bigger purpose to all of this. I think it’s a full-time job he’s paid for with government money raised by dark projects. After the experience of full-on ‘telepathizing’ with all of them, my mother, father, and ex, I know they’re testing and developing Synthetic Telepathy and Remote Neural Monitoring technology. Harassing and trying to control me as ‘the Voice in my Head’, is the government’s foray into mind control. They want to force their way into everyone’s heads! Robert Duncan states that global brain mapping began in 1976. But people must be calibrated directly to gain full access.

      I believe the purpose of having handlers that constantly monitor and try to influence me is to collect and make data for a larger Artificial Intelligence. It must know how to read brains under the influence of different substances, and I gave them that data as they silently monitored me. It was never about ‘helping’ me, it was about experimenting with controlling me over lockdown. The human brain operates at maximum speed of ~40 hertz. That’s basically 40 operations and a powerful enough supercomputer can monitor and influence every human mind when the infrastructure has been installed. The push for 5G and upcoming 6G (terahertz) technology isn’t just about better speeds on your phone, it’s about making a wireless network to be in your mind! I’d still like to believe that it takes dedicated equipment: a millimeter wave scanner, gyrotron resonance MASER, and V2K microwave to create this synthetic telepathic connection. It must be set up and calibrated to function. But after having these ‘telepathic’ experiences with the same voices literally everywhere, I believe it’s a network established through the cell networks and satellites. I could even believe Covid was fabricated just to keep everyone home to calibrate them. A few years ago, I’d consider myself a complete kook and conspiratard for believing these things, but I can’t deny my own personal experience.

      I never believed there could be people in the shadows pulling the strings, making a ‘New World Order.’ Now I believe it’s possible, and our government officials are simply pawns. Chris thinks he’s god or a king, but is a pawn who doesn’t realize what the extent of what he’s doing, his kids are pawns, and anyone he recruits to keep tabs on me are pawns! The world governments are building up their surveillance network until it’s time to flip the switch and truly ‘plug everyone in.’ The NSA has already thrown away the 4th amendment. The Space Force is utter bullshit; why can’t we fund NASA instead? If anything, the Air Force should finish the F-35 first! The purpose of it is to further spying on citizens, and implement means of mind control that are inescapable. Everyone accepts the guise of “keeping up with China to defend us in space.” The Metaverse has begun to appear in mainstream media as the ‘future of connecting to each other.’ Elon Musk and others are developing neural implants and ‘brain chips’ for various purposes. People will pay to plug the government directly into their minds! They already pay for smartphones that track everything for the NSA. If the NSA developed DROPOUTJEEP with the release of the iPhone, then these neural implants will be cracked from the start. Those that don’t or refuse to will have their minds read wirelessly by 5/6G technologies and satellites. Elon Musk is launching his Starlink network. These satellites can serve a greater purpose than just “providing internet to everyone.” Soon, it won’t be possible to hide deep in the woods to escape it with satellites always broadcasting overhead.

      Why control a population that’s already under control? Orwell’s 1984 alludes to the same thing we see today. Regular people work diligently to pay for their existence, watch TV and play video games. They could care less about anything else! I was one of them, and after being tortured 24/7, I can’t be anymore! Those pulling the strings are naturally greedy and want more control of everything. There will be a literal Thought Police reading everyone’s minds, I think in the form of Artificial Intelligence. When you commit thoughtcrimes, it’ll speak to you, and you’ll listen because it will know everything and essentially be God! It will influence your emotional states, molding you into what it wants you to be. People will choose or be forced into this government-created singularity sooner than we think. The world is going to become truly awful when people become fearful of their own thoughts. Orwell’s prediction that the Party’s purpose to “remove all pleasure from the sexual act” might become true. My entire libido and desire for women was smashed apart by kids younger than me; constantly demanding “don’t look at tits/porn/other women” and picking me apart for any sort of arousal. I’ve trained myself to feel nothing because every emotion was read and turned against me!  The few natural escapes left will be tainted by Radio Frequencies transmitted from overhead, and you’ll have to live 100 feet underground to escape it.

I now subscribe to the fact that “all life is suffering,” and Buddhist/Gnostic precepts are correct and the way of the universe. I believed that when you die, that’s it and there’s endless oblivion. Now I realize that you actively must work on achieving death in life through meditation/consciousness and enter your death completely conscious to escape the endless cycle. Just as we eat and burn coal for energy, we’re being harvested for our emotional/spiritual energy. Governments/the elite engineer excess suffering and negativity in the world like how we pump farm animals full of steroids. Anyone who’s ‘in control’ at the ‘top’ has completely sold their soul for it in one way or another and didn’t realize they were being used. The “Whole” is every permutation of every conditional existence possible, so although this unique “you” might not exist in every one, there’s likely many versions of “you.” Your ‘consciousness’ will have experienced everything from being the smallest insect to the mightiest ruler. What goes around comes around, karma and such. If you’ve liked living a “first-world” life and believe the next one will be just as good, I’m glad. But seeing a world so engineered for suffering, the “path to liberation” really is the right way. I should be working on it and not caring about the unwanted presence in my head, but I believe this program is karmically unbalanced, shouldn’t exist, and is piling excess suffering on an already suffering world. It’s just adding another layer to the soul trap. Most people are just left thinking they’re “schizophrenic” with no other insight. All the agents involved will get their negativity returned to them one way or another. If they cared about liberation from suffering, they wouldn’t be playing God through technological means granted by governments and using it so maliciously. I’m going to use my time here to try and educate people about what this program really means. I’m so spiteful from how it was used with such malice that I don’t care about quitting smoking/drinking/drugging and will not play nice with it. Even if it means I go to hell for dying addicted or being angry, I don’t care. I’m not going to prove they can relentlessly bully and torment people with a microwave to get them to change. People change when they truly want to from inside.

       So, what are we going to do about it? Buy the latest smartphone with more advanced sensors? Continue laying our lives bare on social media? Buy a self-driving car that will be controllable? Plug our brains into the Metaverse? We must make the collective decision to ditch all the technology and regress, or we can choose to speak up and fight the governments that are corrupting the capabilities for this tech to bring better lives to everyone. We must address the NSA/CIA/DOJ/DHS/ATF/DEA for their crimes against humanity. They’re responsible for the targeted electronic torment of hundreds of thousands of civilians, engineering mass shootings and other tragedies, and doing nothing to help the country! We have to protest and stop supporting the military-industrial complex. They don’t give a shit about ‘securing’ the country, but rather protecting their own screwed up agendas. I was about peace, love, and nature, but after having so much malice and hatred stuffed into my head, believe all these agents have nothing but avarice and evil in them. We’ll have to make sacrifices if we want freedom of our minds and individuality. The technology itself isn’t evil; it only does what it’s told. The greedy monkeys who get their pleasure from controlling others are.